For most of my life, I thought I had to do something big to make a difference. I believed changing the world meant grand gestures, major accomplishments, or leading a movement. But the 12 Steps, a loving God, and my Sponsor taught me that true change starts small. It starts inside of me. It starts with kindness.
Before I found the Steps, I lived for myself. I chased my wants and needs without thinking about how my actions affected others. My world was small because it was only about me. I thought if I took care of myself first, I would be happy. But the more I focused on myself, the more empty I felt. Selfishness was killing me, and I didn’t even see it.
When I started working the 12 Steps, I realized how self-centered I had become. The Steps showed me that I had been living in fear—fear of not having enough, fear of being hurt, fear of being left out. That fear made me hold on too tightly to everything: my time, my money, my love. I kept myself closed off, thinking that would protect me. But instead, it trapped me in loneliness and pain.
My Sponsor helped me see the truth. He pointed out that selfishness wasn’t just about being greedy. It was about being unwilling to give. It was about being so wrapped up in myself that I couldn’t see the needs of others. He told me that the way out of selfishness was simple: give freely. Give without expecting anything in return. Give because God had already given me so much.
At first, this idea scared me. I worried that if I gave too much, I wouldn’t have enough left for myself. But my Sponsor reminded me that God is loving and generous. He wouldn’t let me go without. He encouraged me to start small. So, I did. I held the door open for someone. I smiled at a stranger. I reached out to a newcomer at a meeting. I listened instead of waiting for my turn to talk. And something amazing happened—I started to feel lighter. The more I gave, the more I received. My fear began to fade, and my heart started to open.
The biggest change came when I started practicing kindness not just with strangers, but with people close to me. I made amends for the times I had been selfish. I showed up when my friends needed me. I gave my time without keeping score. The more I focused on being of service, the more joy I felt.
I used to think I had to be perfect before I could help others. But the Steps, my Sponsor, and God showed me that’s not true. I don’t have to have it all figured out. I just have to be willing. Willing to grow. Willing to give. Willing to trust that even the smallest act of kindness matters.
Now, when I think about changing the world, I don’t dream of doing something huge. I focus on what I can do today. I can be kind. I can be patient. I can offer a hand instead of turning away. One random act of kindness at a time, I can make a difference. And if we all do that, the world will change.
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