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Finding Strength in Al-Anon and God: My Journey to Let Go of Hate and Resentment


My name is Joni, and I want to share my story with you. I've been through some tough times, but I've also learned some valuable lessons. It's all about finding the right people and having faith in something greater than myself.


A few years ago, I was really angry and filled with resentment. I couldn't understand why people were acting the way they were, and I felt like they were making my life miserable. It was tough, and I carried that anger with me every day.


One day, my mom told me about something called Al-Anon. She said it's a group where people who have loved ones struggling with addiction get together to share their feelings and experiences. At first, I wasn't sure about it, but I decided to give it a try.


I walked into that room filled with people who had been through a lot, just like me. They talked about their feelings, and it was like they were speaking my language. I realized that I wasn't alone in my anger and resentment that was caused by alcoholism and the alcoholic in my life. These people understood what I was going through, and they offered me support and friendship.


But there was something even more important than the people in that room. They talked about something they called a "Higher Power" or God. Now, I wasn't really sure what that meant, but they explained that it could be anything you believe in that's greater than yourself. Some people believed in God, others in nature, and some in the power of love. I decided to give it a try, too, and I started to pray and ask for help to let go of my anger.


As I kept going to Al-Anon meetings and talking to my new friends, something amazing started happening. I began to let go of my hate and resentment. I realized that holding onto those feelings was like carrying a heavy backpack around all the time. It was exhausting! But with the support of the people in Al-Anon and my newfound faith in a Higher Power, I started to feel lighter and happier.


One of the things I learned in Al-Anon is that sometimes the people who are closest to us don't always know how to help. They might unintentionally support our bad habits or mistakes, and that's not their fault. They might not understand how to break free from the cycle of addiction, just like we didn't. That's why it's so important to find strong people who are living the 12 steps of recovery. These are the people who have been through it all and have found a way to heal and grow.


With the help of Al-Anon and my newfound belief in a Higher Power, I started to see the world in a different light. I realized that I could choose not to be angry and resentful, and that there were people out there who could show me the way to a better life. I stopped blaming others for my problems and started taking responsibility for my own happiness.


My journey is still ongoing, and I have a long way to go, but I'm not carrying that heavy backpack of hate and resentment anymore. I've found a new family in Al-Anon, and I have faith in something greater than myself. I've learned that by finding the right people and having faith, we can let go of the negativity in our lives and make room for love and happiness.


So, if you're going through a tough time and feel like the only thing people have to offer is supporting your disease and co-signing your defects, remember that there's hope. Reach out to the people in Al-Anon or find your own support system. Believe in a Higher Power, whatever that means to you, and start your journey toward healing. It's not easy, but it's worth it. I'm proof of that! You gottawanna live free of hate and resentment. With peace and love carry on.



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