Life can feel overwhelming. Sometimes, I find myself lost in confusion, my heart heavy with sorrow, and my mind filled with fear about the future. In those moments, I can't trust my thoughts or feelings. They twist and turn, making problems seem bigger and solutions seem impossible.
But I have learned something important: I don’t have to figure it all out on my own. God, my home group, working with newcomers, and the 12 Steps always lead me back to peace and clarity. It doesn’t always happen fast, and it’s never on my terms. But if I stay the course, relief always comes.
When My Thoughts and Feelings Betray Me
Fear, doubt, and sadness cloud my judgment. When I am in that state, my mind lies to me. It tells me I am alone. It tells me things will never get better. It tells me that I have to control everything or I will fall apart. I have learned that these thoughts cannot be trusted.
But even knowing that, I still get caught up in them. That is why I need something stronger than my own mind to guide me. That is where God, my home group, newcomers, and the 12 Steps come in.
Turning to God First
When my world feels upside down, I pause. I pray. Even if I don’t know what to say, I ask God to guide me. I tell Him I am afraid. I tell Him I feel lost. I ask Him to help me trust Him instead of my racing thoughts.
At first, I may not feel an answer. I may not feel relief right away. But I know God hears me. I have seen Him work in my life before, and I trust He is working now, even if I can't see it yet.
Leaning on My Home Group
When I can’t see the way forward, my home group does. They remind me of the truth when I can’t see it for myself. They have been where I am. They have faced fear, heartbreak, and confusion and found their way through.
I listen to their stories. I hear how they walked through their darkest days. Their wisdom gives me hope. Their support reminds me that I am never alone.
Sometimes, I don’t want to go to a meeting. I want to stay in my pain and isolate. But I have learned that showing up—even when I don’t feel like it—opens the door for healing.
Helping Newcomers Helps Me
When I feel stuck, working with newcomers changes everything. They remind me where I once was. I see their pain and confusion, and I realize I have grown.
By sharing my experience, I step out of my own fear. I focus on helping someone else instead of drowning in my own thoughts. I remember that recovery is not about fixing everything overnight. It’s about taking small steps, trusting the process, and staying connected.
Working the 12 Steps Brings Clarity
The 12 Steps have never failed me. When I work them honestly, they guide me out of the darkness and into the light.
Step 1 reminds me that I am powerless over people, places, and things—but God is not.
Step 2 reminds me that God can restore my sanity if I let Him.
Step 3 teaches me to turn my will and my life over to Him, even when I don’t understand what He is doing.
Steps 4 and 5 help me clear away the thoughts and fears that keep me stuck.
Steps 6 and 7 remind me that change takes time, but God is working in me.
Steps 8 and 9 help me make things right with others, which brings peace.
Steps 10, 11, and 12 keep me connected to God and others, showing me how to live a life of purpose and trust.
Relief Comes, But Not on My Terms
I have learned that God’s timing is not my timing. I want peace and clarity immediately, but that is not how it works. Sometimes, I have to sit in the discomfort. Sometimes, I have to keep showing up, even when I don’t feel better yet.
But I have also learned this: relief always comes. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow. But if I keep praying, keep trusting, keep working the Steps, and keep leaning on my home group, clarity always finds me.
It’s not about fixing everything overnight. It’s about staying the course, trusting the process, and knowing that God is leading me, even when I can’t see the path.
When I feel confused, brokenhearted, and afraid of the future, I don’t have to figure everything out on my own. God, my home group, newcomers, and the 12 Steps lead me back to peace and clarity.
It doesn’t happen fast. It doesn’t happen the way I expect. But if I keep showing up, keep trusting, and keep working, I always find my way through.
If you feel lost today, hold on. Pray. Go to a meeting. Help someone else. Work the Steps. Relief is coming. Peace is on the way. You are not alone.
I love you keep on moving forward stop looking back one day it will be clear and you will feel and know God's love and Grace were there all along even when you fought it thank you ... you gottawanna live happy joyous and free
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